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melancholy without hope

I create myself. I take the words. I scatter them, in time and space.

Honey, you should see me in a crown.
8 October
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♣♣♣♣♣♣ what's in a name?
Does anybody actually read these things? I thought not. I spend far too much time reading and writing fanfic, instead of being more productive and I don't know, opening orphanages for kittens. I'm a teacher who is far to sarcastic for her own good and who quotes too much ABOFAL in class, leading to further confusion of the youth of America.

Well since I have some time on my hands, and some new friends, I figured I should update my bio.

I've also been overweight most of my life. There was a short time when I was in my 20's when I lost 85 pounds but I gained 20 of it back in like 5 seconds when I stopped eating salads and working out. I've started a workout LJ that focuses on that moveitonoutgirl if you are interested.

I'm a licensed teacher in the state of MA and I am a substitute teacher. I'm an elementary teacher, but have only worked in middle schools as a teacher over the past 3 years. Prior to that I was an instructional aide and prior to that I worked in IT. It is very frustrating not having a job with the school year beginning and not being a part of it.

I like to read and write, although I haven't done much of the two this summer. When my head hurts it is easier to not read or write.

I've been single for the past 5+ years. I was in 2 long relationships back to back, from when I was out of college until about 5 years ago. I started dating again this summer, and found it was not as fun as I remembered it at all and was more of a hassle. The 2 people I was in a relationship with went from dating to serious relationship and there was none of this gray area, idk, no kissing, touching, randomness I wasn't sure how to handle. Or maybe it was the guys, maybe it was me. I don't know.

The first guy B, well, it was a mistake, (hindsight being what it is and all) to leave him and now...well he is married with 2 kids....to a woman who looks quite a lot like me from what I have discovered.

The second guy S, (or the asshole, or the Nazi) went on for far too long b/c I thought I could change him and save the world. I did a lot of things I am NOT proud of to myself, my family and my friends being in that relationship. I can't believe I ever thought we would get married, now.... He is now married. While I sit in my shared (with 4 other people) home with my cat and wonder where it all went wrong.

SO I think that's good for now and perhaps later I will have something positive to add.

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